Institutionalized – SUICIDAL TENDENCIES

Sometimes I try to do things and it just doesn’t work out the way I want it to I get real frustrated and I try hard to do it and I take my time and it doesn’t work out the way I want it to It’s like I concentrate real hard and it doesn’t work out Everything I do and everything I try never turns out It’s like I need time to figure these things out But there’s always someone there going

Hey Mike: You know we’ve been noticing you’ve been having a lot of problems lately You know, maybe you should get away and maybe you should talk about it, maybe you’ll feel a lot better

And I’m all like: Oh nah it’s ok you know I’ll figure it out, just leave me alone I’ll figure it out You know I’m just working on it by myself

And they go: Well you know if you want to talk about it I’ll be here you know and you’ll probably feel a lot better if you talk about it So why don’t you talk about it?

And I go: No I don’t want to I’m okay, I’ll figure it out myself But they just keep bugging me and they just keep bugging me, and it builds up inside

So you’re gonna be institutionalized You’ll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes You won’t have anyting to say They’ll brainwash you until you see their way

I’m not crazy – Institutionalized You’re the one that’s crazy – Institutionalized You’re driving me crazy – Institutionalized They stuck me in an institution, Said it was the only solution, to give me the needed professional help to protect me from the enemy – Myself

I was in my room and I was just like staring at the wall thinking about everything But then again I was thinking about nothing And then my mom came in and I didn’t even know she was there She called my name and I didn’t hear her and then she started screaming: MIKE! MIKE! And I go: What, what’s the matter? She goes: What’s the matter with you? I go: There’s nothing wrong mom She’s all: Don’t tell me that, you’re on drugs! I go: No mom I’m not on drugs I’m okay, I was just thinking you know, why don’t you get me a Pepsi She goes: NO you’re on drugs! I go: Mom I’m okay, I’m just thinking She goes: No you’re not thinking, you’re on drugs! Normal people don’t be acting that way! I go: Mom just get me a Pepsi, please All I want is a Pepsi, and she wouldn’t give it to me All I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi, and she wouldn’t give it to me Just a Pepsi

They give you a white shirt with long sleeves Tied around you’re back, you’re treated like thieves Drug you up because they’re lazy It’s too much work to help a crazy

I’m not crazy – Institutionalized You’re the one who’s crazy – Institutionalized You’re driving me crazy – Institutionalized They stuck me in an institution, Said it was the only solution, to give me the needed professional help, to protect me from the enemy – Myself

I was sitting in my room when my mom and my dad came in and they pulled up a chair and they sat down They go: Mike, we need to talk to you And I go: Okay what’s the matter? They go: Me and your mom have been noticing lately that you’ve been having a lot of problems And you’ve been going off for no reason and we’re afraid you’re going to hurt somebody And we’re afraid you’re going to hurt yourself So we decided that it would be in you’re best interest if we put you somewhere Where you could get the help that you need And I go: Wait, what are you talking about, WE decided!? MY best interests?! How do you know what MY best interest is? How can you say what MY best interest is? What are you trying to say, I’M crazy? When I went to YOUR schools, I went to YOUR churches I went to YOUR institutional learning facilities?! So how can you say I’M crazy?

They say they’re gonna fix my brain Alleviate my suffering and my pain But by the time they fix my head Mentally I’ll be dead

I’m not crazy – Institutionalized You’re the one who’s crazy – Institutionalized You’re driving me crazy – Institutionalized They stuck me in an institution Said it was the only solution to give me the needed professional help to protect me from the enemy – Myself

Doesn’t matter, I’ll probably get hit by a car anyways