5 Years

I came across this amusing website called FutureMe.org. It allows you to send yourself an email, a couple of years in the future. I chose 5 years as the length of time for my email to reach me. So basically, I wrote an email that will be sent to me, 5 years from now. So you might be thinking, duh, but you wrote the email, doofus, so what’s the point?

It’s basically like writing yourself a letter, locking it up somewhere, and reading it again 5 years later. It’s like reading an old journal entry, or looking at old pictures of yourself. I guess 5 years from now, I’d like a peek at my state of mind, 5 years ago, which is now, but will be 5 years ago, 5 years from now. Clear?

It just started out as something interesting to do on a rainy Tuesday afternoon, just to while away the idle time. What I didn’t realize was that I had quite a load to get off my chest. I suddenly felt like I had so many things to say, stuff that I didn’t want to tell ANYONE…until now. I realized I was the only person I wanted to say these things to. It’s weird, I wouldn’t blame you if you thought I was losing it, but writing to myself felt like I was talking to my oldest, dearest long-lost friend. I didn’t feel like editing, I didn’t see any need to sugar-coat anything. It was the most relieved I’ve been in such a long time. I didn’t realize I just needed a good one-on-one with myself. I swear, it felt like therapy. Nothing was resolved, but the pressure was sort of lifted. I also realized just how weird and messed up I actually am.

So anyway, you might want to give it a try. Write yourself something and send it to your email address some time in the future. Maybe after a year, 5 years, 20 years, it’s your choice.